Memoir of a Medium
Memoir of a Medium
Anyone else feeling as if the end of 2021 is the end of a lifetime?
When I was 26 I received a premonition from my guides that I was going to die at the age of 36. The year before I turned 36 I asked myself “If I really had just one more year to live, what would I do?” The answer: “I would leave a legacy”. Which, back then, meant sharing my story. Three months later I was invited to share my story in the book Set Sail: Shine your Light, Activate your Ascension, Ignite your Income. Live your Legacy.
With my story now forever printed in a book, the part of me that wanted to share that story felt heard and seen and thus started to fade away. This was also the part of me that identified with lack, pain, worry, doubt, limitations, loneliness, separation, mistrust, insecurity, tension, pressure, inability to love, be loved and receive love, chasing, debt, guilt, shame, stress, sacrifice, anger, heart ache and sickness.
In a world where all of the above is considered normal and unavoidable, having a different perspective can make you feel out of place. What I learned though is that our true identity is love, joy, clarity, certainty, freedom, union, peace, abundance, innocence, health, wisdom, beauty, happiness, laughter, intimacy and connection.
And all of that starts … from within.
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2021, I love you!!
I am so grateful for all that you taught me!!
I will take all the lessons with me for the rest of my life and build on it forever!!
Here are 12 lessons I learned in 2021:
1. Support is always available. And it can come from the most unexpected of places.
2. Show up for others the way you want them to show up for you. Even if you are being ignored, blocked or ghosted.
3. Even when you are being the most loving, kind, joyful and generous person you have ever been, people will still ignore, block or ghost you.
4. People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Love and appreciate them all as if they are in your life for a lifetime and set them free if they are not.
5. Relationships begin where the last one ended. End it with love and love will be yours.
6. The extend to which you can love yourself, is the extend to which you can love another. Love yourself unconditionally.
7. Unconditional love exists.
8. Have standards. And keep them.
9. There are parts of the journey of life where no coach, no teacher, no guide can guide you through. Those moments you have to go through alone so that you can learn how to lead yourself.
10. Learning how to lead yourself is a privilege given to many, but only taken by a few.
11. Confidence and self-esteem are two very different things. You can be and feel confident, whilst carrying the remnants of low self-esteem. Low self-esteem can prevent you from opening your heart to receiving more love, joy and abundance, no matter how confident you are.
12. You are a Goddess!! 😍
The Christmas I decided to skip became a Christmas I will cherish forever.
No fancy meals.
No party people.
But the beauty, love, wisdom and joy I felt from within were unlike anything I have ever experienced before.
Last week I shared with you that I had made a mistake in my business.
On the surface this mistake was about the renaming and rebranding of my services.
Underneath it, it was about sooooo much more!! 🤯
I decided to go ahead with this renaming and rebranding even though it didn’t feel fully aligned for me and we launched it on 11/11.
Four weeks later I felt exhausted and depleted and realised my mistake. 🙄
“This”, I told myself, “Is what you guide others through. So it’s time to apply your own teachings to yourself and listen carefully for the guidance of your soul.”
To hear that guidance, you need to “empty yourself” from old stories of unworthiness, so that you become a super clear receiver for the guidance.
This time, that emptying seemed to take forever.
And just when I began loosing my patience with myself and the old stories started to creep back in … my soul poured a new dream through me! 😍
Right on Christmas day… 🎄
… the love
… the beauty
… the wisdom
… the joy
… of a NEW DREAM poured through me!!
The experience took me beyond time and space into the moment and place of my future self who was living that dream.
I could feel every emotion and hear every thought.
I could see the faces of people with me and feel their presence next to me.
It was so beautiful!!! ❤️
The receiving of this dream I will cherish forever!!! ❤️
Today I reversed back to the original names of my services. One of which is Forest Dream.
It is no coincidence that I am experiencing exactly what I am being called to guide others through!!
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"I scewed up."
Have you ever heard yourself say that?
"I scewed up.... and that is OK."
Early November I made a decision that changed the trajectory of my business. Now, over a month later, I can see that decision was not in my best interest. Instead of staying true to my heart, I allowed my fear of what other people would think of me influence my decision making process.
The result is a momentum that does not feel fully aligned with who I am and the gift I have to offer you.
The result is also a much deeper understanding of who I am and the gift I have to offer you.
Do you see my point here?
You can never get it wrong. Every mistake has an upside to it.
Yesterday in my IG stories I shared with you that I am in a transitioning phase. Having to admit that what I was doing was not working me, ignited that transition. When this happens I usually withdraw from social media or hold the transformation for myself. This time I want to take you with me on the adventure.
What that adventure is going to look like, is something I have yet to find out.
But I do know that writing about it is my yam for now.
So here I am, writing about it.
That what one might call the soul whispers to us all the time. Some of us have just forgotten how to listen. And because they do not remember how to listen, they cannot see the value of it.
This weekend I took some extra time to listen. I asked my soul "If everything is perfect in my life right now, what would we do?" You know what I heard?
Write, write, write.
Be in the forest.
Play with essential oils.
Heal your heart.
Visit stone circles.
I am writing.
I am dancing.
I am creating.
I am sharing joy with whoever wants to feel it!
I am connecting to the energy of the forest (there is not a lot of it around here so I am tapping into forest energy.)
I play with essential oils.
Make space to feel and heal my heart.
Make love to myself by upping my selfcare.
Ideas start to emerge for my next stone circle visit.
Which will include more travel.
And have opened myself up to a new home.
What sweet melodies of love is your soul whispering to you today?
Memoir of a Medium
is an ongoing series of personal stories and experiences about my life and work as a high-level medium and oracle.
Writing these stories
makes me feel good and fills my mystical, sacred feminine heart with joy.
By sharing these stories
I trust they do the same for you.