When you see Beauty,
You see Love.
You are beautiful
and I love you.
When you see Beauty,
You see Love.
You are beautiful
and I love you.
Life is not something we figure out in our heads. We figure it out by living it. By experiencing it.
We figure it out by taking a risk. By taking a leap of good faith. By doing something we have never done before so we can stretch our horizon and experience for ourselves what happens.
Our freedom lies in doing the exact thing we resist most. For it is by doing it that the resistance loses it's grip on us.
It is the release of this resistance that will set you free.
Well look what card came up for me today. How cunning.
During my morning meditation my head was pounding, my heart was racing and my body all tensed up as I am in the process of breaking through an old ancestral belief: that the kind of life I dream of is not available for me.
Breaking through ancestral patterns to create a different kind of life for yourself than your ancestors had, is not easy. It requires a high level of self-awareness to see through your own inherited patterns and take action to change them.
You see, I might have moved to another country and started a new life here, but the ancestral pattern was still there. And so every time I got real close to what I dreamed off, I would (unconsciously) sabotage it. I screwed up perfect homes, perfect business opportunities and perfect relationships this way. And it took another rock-bottom moment here in Wales (I had one in The Netherlands too) for me to see my own self-sabotaging behaviour and set a plan into action to change it.
"The only constant is change" - Buddha
So I figured... If change is inevitable, I might as well change myself into someone I actually like. So that I can not only create the life of my dreams but keep it, too.
So here we are, recreating myself by reprogramming my own brain.
Turns out that premonition of me dying at the age of 36 (I am 36 now) about something in my brain, was true all along. (Read my story in #1 Amazon Best Seller Set Sail)
(Card from "Angels and Ancestors" by Kyle Gray.)
I am going through one of the most profound moments of healing of my life so far and it is deep. The difference with previous times I have had to face this trauma was that anger kept coming up. Now there is only peace.
From that place of peace I feel a strong connection with my mother lineage return. The bond between me and my mother is stronger than ever and growing by the week. And this morning the presence of my beautiful grand mother was palpable.
My grandmother was one of the most loving, kind and generous humam beings I have ever had the honour of knowing. Looking back now, I can see the incredible impact she has had on my life as an example of unconditional love.
These earrings were hers. They have been were I have been and have joined me through every curve and corner of my endless packing and unpacking of suitcases and boxes.
I love them. And still wear them. And on a day like today, they help me to remember that all is well in the end. If things are not well, it's not the end.
My grandmother died when I was 18.
18 years ago.
Final day of our 5 mile radius travel restrictions - WILD NATURE here I come!
With no garden, no balcony, no windows that open up wide enough for me to stick my head out and breathe and no access to wild nature to ground myself in, let's just say that my daily meditation practise has saved the sanity of this Wild Woman once again.
I take my hat of for all of you living with children, parents, spouses or house mates cramped up in a 2-bedroom apartment in concrete city.
I won't lie, it's been though going through lockdown living on my own. I love going out and meeting people, chatting away, sharing hugs. It's how I spread my light, my joy, my zest for life. Not being able to do that, I choose to turn inwards into the deep dark corners of my soul.
What is this telling me? What quality within me wants to emerge from this discomfort? What new skill can I teach myself being in this situation? And how can I use that to anchor even more deeply into my mission to serve others? What do I get to experience now that I can teach them later? These are questions I ask myself when confronted with discomfort. And they always guide me through, eventually.
I know that for many people lockdown isn't over yet. Even with restrictions lifted, life will never be the same again and for most people that is terrifying. Their "lockdown" might have only just begun as they are challenged to navigate a world that no longer feels safe to them.
But for most of your reading this, life after lockdown will feel as if you are being freed. As if the shackles from the past have been cut loose for good and you are finally able to do what you have always known you were meant to do:
Create a better world.
I call this The Unleashing. For you finally, finally, finally have unleashed yourself from who you think you needed to be in order to fit in and instead have come to know who really you are, what your purpose in life is and how to live life fully.
This is an exciting time in our Earth's history, for the dawn of a new age is near.
To our collective expansion!
As lockdown here in Wales is being lifted, I cannot help but hold my heart for what will happen. Will we all just go 'back to normal' and pretend nothing happened? Because that sure is human nature... pretend nothing happened. Pretend nothing that WE did, as individuals, might have contributed to this global crisis, and instead point fingers to everyone and everything else and blame them for the situation we are in.
Just now I read the Pembrokeshire Coast's new slogan "While we were away, nature reclaimed our National Park". Reclaimed indeed. Because just because we name it "our" National Park, does not mean we own nature.
The way I see it is that we are guardians. Guardians of land, ocean, sky. And excuse me for saying this so bluntly, but taken the fact that nature THRIVED when we were away shows that we have really sucked at our job so far.
If it were up to me, I would have fired us all. And hire a completely new team. Thank heavens our beautiful Mother Planet is giving us as a species another chance.
Will we take it?
Will you take it?
Will you have an honest look at yourself and your own behaviour when it comes to honouring the environment and living a life in alignment with nature?
Or will you simply pick up the pieces and continue to do what you always did: worry about money, worry about time and giving fuck all about how you treat your very own piece of nature: your body.
Trust me when I say that the NHS would have been far less busy if we all would have listened to the inner wisdom or our own bodies - which is the wisdom of nature.
It's not too late though. Our species is still here. Will you listen this time around?