Memoir of a Medium
Memoir of a Medium
When they come... Will you listen?
In her book "The seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo" Taylor Jenkins Reid writes "People think intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realise you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them, and their response is "you're safe with me" - that is intimacy."
Even though I have not read the book yet, this is quite possibly one of my favourite quotes of all time as it so beautifully captures everything that love is about for me. Not just love between partners, but also between friends, family, and, most importantly, between you and you. Do you feel safe with yourself and your own truth? Are you able to spend time alone and enjoy your own company? Are you able to look in the mirror and say, "you're safe with me"? It has taken me years to feel safe with myself, but I can now honestly say that I love me. I can look in the mirror and say, "You're safe with me", "I have got your back", "I trust you", "You are amazing", "I love you". I believe this is the greatest gift a woman can give to the world; her ability to love herself. When a woman loves herself, ALL of herself, her cup is always full, and she is able to give and share from an endless source of wellbeing and unconditional love.
One of the things I noticed during my own return to self-love was my tendency to run away from it. Every time I was about to commit to an expansion I truly desired, I would begin feeling uncomfortable and restless and I would mistakenly interpret it as a signal that something was not right.
Instead of trusting the whispers of my inner wisdom, I would spend days or weeks bumping up against the edge, doubting and hesitating, and very often backing away from it. It was not until I was in serious physical pain that I realised how ingrained this pattern of self-destruction was.
From the outside everything looked fine. I was eating healthy, I was exercising, I was feeling strong and fit. But my body was telling a different story. My womb was bleeding. Oftentimes for two or three months in a row. My periods were horrifying events. The pain often unbearable. I knew my womb was telling me something. And I believed that if I would understand her message, the excessive bleeding would stop, and the pain would disappear. So I started to pay attention. I started to listen more carefully to the voice of my womb. And she began whispering sweet melodies of beauty and love and tenderness and joy. She began guiding me through the cycles of the moon and into a deeper connection with nature. She began whispering about unleashing my voice, reclaiming my power and honouring my initiation into The Lineage of the Rose. At the time I had no idea what The Lineage of the Rose was about, nor what being an initiate meant. But I trusted that one day, I would find out.
The Mother Wound
I did find out. A collective of Ascended Masters who introduced themselves as The Magdalenes stepped forth from the other side of the veil: "We are The Magdalenes and we have come to speak to you ... will you listen?"
The Magdalenes told me that The Lineage of The Rose is the lineage of the feminine aspect of the divine and holds the mysteries of sacred feminine pleasure. It runs parallel to the lineage of the masculine aspect of the divine, which holds the mysteries of sacred masculine pleasure. Once passed down from mothers to daughters as a rite of passage from maiden into womanhood, the mysteries of the rose lineage were very much forgotten when the presence of women as the embodiment of the divine feminine was wiped out of the religious history books. Instead of sacred feminine pleasure, the pain of the suppressed feminine was passed down. Pain some of us still hold in the cellular memory of our bodies today.
These words resonated deeply with me. Oh, how I had longer for my mother's reassurance as a young teenager when my menstrual cycles began and my curves began to show! How I had longed for a wise woman to teach me about tantric wisdom as I was exploring my sexuality! How I had longed for embodied divine feminine guidance when I transitioned from maiden- to womanhood! But it was not there. The reassurance, guidance, wisdom and teachings of the divine feminine just were not there. My mother did not know. My grandmother did not know. My aunts and sisters did not know. The women around me did not know. We had forgotten. We had all forgotten!
When I was able to see the full scope of this forgetting, I cried for the suppressed feminine within my mother, my grandmothers, my aunties, my nieces, my sisters and all of our sons and daughters. I realised that "motherhood" is not just taking care of a child, it is the vibrational frequency of divine love all women carry from within. Do we not wish to love our children unconditionally? Then why do we deny ourselves what we wish for our children?
I have come to know The Magdalenes as our ancestors, both men and women, who have walked this path of divine embodiment. To me they are the wisdom keepers of The Lineage of The Rose and represent the divine feminine within all of us. It were The Magdalenes who helped me heal my mother wound and offered the reassurance, guidance, wisdom and teachings into self-love, womb healing and tantric pleasure my soul longed to remember. The Magdalenes have been the guides I prayed for all those years ago.
Divine Feminine Healing
It is said that when you talk nicely to plants it helps them grow. Send the plant loving intentions and it grows better. Send it intentions of frustration, shame or guilt and it slowly begins to die. When you stand in front of the mirror, how do you talk to yourself? Do you speak kindly about yourself and you body? Do you send yourself loving thoughts? Do you hold yourself? Is it safe to be yourself with yourself?
I am not the only one The Magdalenes communicate with. You can call upon their guidance, too, and they will come. The question is ... will you listen?
"The Magdalenes, the Magdalenes, the Magdalenes are here. We have come, dear one, to guide you back to the essence of love. The love you hold in your heart, the love for the mother. We have come to speak to you. Will you listen?
We are the Magdalenes. Bearers of the swords. Holy grail cups of the Rose. Do not fight. Do not fret. Your activation has begun. Your initiation is near. You are ready now. Stay open to love. We love you. The Magdalenes, the Magdalenes, the Magdalenes are here."
With rosey love 🌹
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