Life is not something we figure out in our heads. We figure it out by living it. By experiencing it.
We figure it out by taking a risk. By taking a leap of good faith. By doing something we have never done before so we can stretch our horizon and experience for ourselves what happens.
Our freedom lies in doing the exact thing we resist most. For it is by doing it that the resistance loses it's grip on us.
It is the release of this resistance that will set you free.
I am going through one of the most profound moments of healing of my life so far and it is deep. The difference with previous times I have had to face this trauma was that anger kept coming up. Now there is only peace.
From that place of peace I feel a strong connection with my mother lineage return. The bond between me and my mother is stronger than ever and growing by the week. And this morning the presence of my beautiful grand mother was palpable.
My grandmother was one of the most loving, kind and generous humam beings I have ever had the honour of knowing. Looking back now, I can see the incredible impact she has had on my life as an example of unconditional love.
These earrings were hers. They have been were I have been and have joined me through every curve and corner of my endless packing and unpacking of suitcases and boxes.
I love them. And still wear them. And on a day like today, they help me to remember that all is well in the end. If things are not well, it's not the end.
My grandmother died when I was 18.
18 years ago.
Final day of our 5 mile radius travel restrictions - WILD NATURE here I come!
With no garden, no balcony, no windows that open up wide enough for me to stick my head out and breathe and no access to wild nature to ground myself in, let's just say that my daily meditation practise has saved the sanity of this Wild Woman once again.
I take my hat of for all of you living with children, parents, spouses or house mates cramped up in a 2-bedroom apartment in concrete city.
I won't lie, it's been though going through lockdown living on my own. I love going out and meeting people, chatting away, sharing hugs. It's how I spread my light, my joy, my zest for life. Not being able to do that, I choose to turn inwards into the deep dark corners of my soul.
What is this telling me? What quality within me wants to emerge from this discomfort? What new skill can I teach myself being in this situation? And how can I use that to anchor even more deeply into my mission to serve others? What do I get to experience now that I can teach them later? These are questions I ask myself when confronted with discomfort. And they always guide me through, eventually.
I know that for many people lockdown isn't over yet. Even with restrictions lifted, life will never be the same again and for most people that is terrifying. Their "lockdown" might have only just begun as they are challenged to navigate a world that no longer feels safe to them.
But for most of your reading this, life after lockdown will feel as if you are being freed. As if the shackles from the past have been cut loose for good and you are finally able to do what you have always known you were meant to do:
Create a better world.
I call this The Unleashing. For you finally, finally, finally have unleashed yourself from who you think you needed to be in order to fit in and instead have come to know who really you are, what your purpose in life is and how to live life fully.
This is an exciting time in our Earth's history, for the dawn of a new age is near.
To our collective expansion!